Influencer Christine Tran Ferguson has been left ‘heartbroken’ following the tragic loss of her one-year-old son, Asher.
The social media star behind the Tour de Lust travel page on TikTok, Instagram, and YouTube, posted on Thursday that her beloved 15-month-old son had died.
The blogger, 37, welcomed Asher, her first child, on April 20, 2022, with her husband Ryan Ferguson.
Sharing a series of photos and videos of the youngster, she wrote a lengthy and heartbreaking message addressed to her son following his passing.
‘You’re 15 months today my little angel ???????? Mama and dada love you so much, you brought us so much joy, and made our family complete. I have never known how much love and happiness I could have until you came into our life,’ she began.
‘You are the smartest & happiest little boy I’ve ever known. You were going to do amazing things and change the world I just know it.
‘I miss your little laughs, the way you stick out your tongue when you giggled, the way you picked up your food with your tiny chubby fingers, your little dance moves, how you clapped your hands, your little feet kicking a ball, the way you grab the hockey or golf sticks for dada, you just always knew how to make everyone smile.’
She went on to say that her heart is ‘utterly broken’ and that she is still ‘in shock’ following his death, wanting to wake up from ‘this unimaginable nightmare and have [him] back in [her] arms.’
‘Why is this happening to us, why Asher?? You did not deserve any of this. Losing you is the hardest experience mommy and daddy has ever had to endure,’ she continued.
‘Every day has been torture without you, this pain is unbearable. I still feel like you’re going to reappear but our home is so quiet and empty without you. Part of me has died with you. I’m so heartbroken, with no idea how to live a life without you.
‘I can’t even put into words how loved you are. I can’t stop seeing your big smile everywhere I go, I hear your laugh and babbles all day and it just breaks my heart you’re physically not here. Your room is empty, your stuff untouched.’
Ferguson said that there is ‘no pain than can ever compare to losing a child,’ and expressed her disbelief that it is happening to her husband and her.
She continued: ‘I would give anything to take your place, to go back in time. I still can’t believe you’re gone, why did you have to go so soon?? We had a future as a family I constantly think about & it’s just gone.
‘I miss running my hands through all your hair, biting your chubby little feet, but most of all I ache for your hugs and kisses so much!! I pray I get to see you in my dreams every night. I just want you back so badly, but you’re never coming home and it’s killing me.’
She continued her post in the comments, saying: ‘We feel so lost without you and miss you so damn much. I prayed for the miracle, for YOU to be the miracle, for you to come back to us. My heart aches for you every second. You will never be forgotten. We will take you everywhere we go. We love you so much my sweet boy, I pray I get to see you soon.’
Ferguson ended the post by thanking friends and fans for reaching out, and shed that she and her husband have ‘privacy during this difficult time as we’re still in shock and still have no answers to this unbearable nightmare.’
She did not share further details about the infant’s death, though she had shared two weeks prior that he was ‘fighting for his life in the ICU.’
‘Please God, give us a miracle and save my sweet Asher,’ she wrote at the time. ‘We need you, we miss your laugh, your smile, we need you here with mama & dada.’
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